Winter notwithstanding, this has been an oddly grey week for me. Lily has had a set-back all because of me.
Her second recheck with her vet was so hopeful I threw caution to the wind. She was walking without a hitch as if she’d not injured her knee at all. So, forgetting they told me not to, I put her in the car and we resumed almost the routine we knew pre-surgery– went to parks, took longer walks. After about a week with all going well (so I thought), Lily’s surgery leg got caught in the slip cover when she tried to get out of the car. I helped her down, but it wasn’t right.
She couldn’t put any weight on her leg.
Convinced she’d undone the mend I called the vet and he recommended letting her rest a few days and, if she wasn’t any better he’d see her.
He manipulated her leg, pronounced her still ok, and I confessed my false confidence. Her pain and anti-inflammatory medicines were refilled. I was instructed to continue her walks at home to strengthen her leg and we came home, with her vet telling me to call again if she needed.
So that was almost 10 days ago. It’s been incremental but she is improving. What has been so discouraging on top of my own personal guilt are the well-meaning neighbors we’d pass on short walks through the neighborhood, who don’t know us or about her injury asking questions that basically translate to ‘why are you so badly mistreating your dog, can’t you see she is plainly in pain’?? And I explain though they remain skeptical.
So I have felt puny, as my mom would say. Then my brother called on Monday, not his usual day to call, and lent a sympathetic ear, which gave me a boost. God must have known that was a good start but then a prayer warrior from an organization I support called to see if I would like for her to pray with me! Still He lifted me again the next day when a good friend called just to say hello and listened to Lily’s and my quandary. To top the week my son called on Friday. I’d not heard from him in quite a while and was eager to hear his news and share a bit of mine.
So though we are still carefully working at restoring Lily to the level she’d reached before I feel better about it, I am reminded how much others, those who understand, can truly lift spirits.
And I am grateful.
Lulu has helped support Lily, too.